God is such a show-off!

Can you imagine wiping the canvas clean every 5 seconds and painting a new skyline? A different colour palette every👏🏾 single👏🏾 time 👏🏾. Whew!

01 – 02 – 2021

LIONS HEAD, TABLE MOUNTAIN

CAPE TOWN, SOUTH AFRICA

Lions Head – 5.19 am
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Pictures: taken with iPhone 6

Location: Cape Town, South Africa

hello Stranger

i Stare into space
and I see you
faceless…Nameless…but familiar
have We met before?

 

silence…

 

you Don’t answer me,
you just stare into my eyes;
those dancing eyes of yours!

 

i Laugh!!

 

in a Flash, you were gone
but I know you’ll be back.
and This one thing I know
you Crazy about me
as I am about you too.

you FOUND me

smile…
hold my hand.
we’re taking a walk.
in the cool of the night.

laugh!!!
the joke was so funny!
i look at you and smile,
i see it in your eyes, and my heart flutters.

… oh dear …

sing…
one of them oldies.
i look up and i see,
it’s a full moon today.

dance…
you draw me close to you, arms around my waist
and we sway to the song only both of us hear,
beneath the full moon.

my heart…
i find it so hard to believe,
i’m really trying…

kiss…
you hold my face in your hands
your lips grazing mine, softly
you look deep into my eyes.
and tell me, it’s true.

i look back into your eyes,
AND I BELIEVE!

fleeting memories

I just want
the days to turn to weeks
and the weeks to months
because as time flies
so will the memory of you diminish
and our time together will just be

well…
fleeting memories

of a time
I believed those words
‘I want to be your friend too’
so
I let my guard down
I let my heart beat
I opened up my body to receive

of a period
I went all in
never expecting same back in return
it was exhilarating, painful and beautiful
all at once

but in all this
I still learned
that as humans
we do hope
to be liked
to be respected
to be desired
to be seen
and maybe, just by happenstance
to be loved
in return
no matter how we deceive ourselves
that it doesn’t matter

and I also learned that
if someone really does like you
just for who you are
and not for what they get
if someone really sees you
no matter what went down
they’d make an effort
really really try
to make that friendship work

what can be. what could have been.

seasons gone by
winter to spring
summer to fall
still, nothing has changed.
my heart beats faster even more
it…
that…
grows…
with every new day that comes.

Oh  .   My  .   God!

IT .  IS  .   BEAUTIFUL!

my heart sings.
steps lighter.
laugh easily.
everything beautiful.
giggles!!!
nothing else matters, but you.

only but a dream,
what can be.
what could have been.
what would never be.
sigh!

could it get any crueler…, this?
what is this?
what this is?

does it make any sense?
this?
all this?
whatever it is?
what i think it is?
but maybe it is not?

it hurts,
really does.
knowing that,
what can be.
what could have been.
may never ever be.

but still,
it’s beautiful!
my heart sings!!
steps lighter!
laugh easily!!
everything beautiful!
giggles!!
nothing else matters, but you.

liberated

we’ve fist bumped

argued together

screamed at each other

held on tight through the night

cuddled me to sleep, speaking sweet words of comfort in my ears

when i fall, hands stretched out, to pick me up

we’ve danced like crazy

arms flaying in the air, with abandon

shared jokes only we understand, hollering with laughter that comes from deep within

my worst, always there, just sitting and listening to me as I scream obscenities, sometimes, screaming with me too

held me as i wept

my good, right there too, cheering me on, prancing up and down with excitement, shouting so loud with pride

whatever name i call him/her/who/whom

he, she, God, universe, man, woman, lover, friend, papa, mama, brother, sister, air, fire, water, nothing

still here

filling me up

inside

beside

outside

unfolding

wrapping

in the stillness, in the chaos

still here,

never leaving.

It is dead. It is over. It is gone. It is done.

“The more you talk about it, rehash it, rethink it, cross analyze it, debate it, respond to it, get paranoid about it, compete with it, complain about it, immortalize it, cry over it, kick it, defame it, stalk it, gossip about it, pray over it, put it down or dissect its motives it continues to rot in your brain. It is dead. It is over. It is gone. It is done. It is time to bury it because it is smelling up your life and no one wants to be near your rotted corpse of memories and decaying attitude. Be the funeral director of your life and bury that thing!”

― Shannon L. Alder

if you knew you could not fail, What Would You Attempt to Do?

Dreaming is never enough! You have to take the first step even if it means stepping out of your comfort zone.

Procrastination kills more dreams than failure ever will. Trust me! I know! I’m still dealing with that evil habit! Deal with fear!

Fear is the BIGGEST obstacle to pursuing your dreams. It is crippling and will steal your dreams from under you- you won’t even know when it’s gone. Fear makes you tell yourself that you’ll go after your dreams when you have acquired more skills, or more money, or more time, but the truth is, that will never happen. Only when you can finally move on from your fears and recognise how it is holding you back, then can you begin to move forward.

Ask yourself this question,

“What Would You Attempt to Do If You Knew You Could Not Fail?”

So what are you waiting for? Take that first step today!

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from Me to You… JUST LET IT GO

                    Healing.

it’s been 10 days, 10 months, 10 years
really not that long though…
They say time heals all wounds…hmm… humbug!
such bollocks –tsk– who said that again?
Whoever it was must have been high on cheap weed when he said that.

                           Pain.

there are some things time never heals, you know?
But what I think is that you make a choice and decide to move on
You go on and get busy with life
whatever it is you do -Job, School, Church…
you meet new people, have new hobbies, travel…
but if that thing, person or event really did matter to you, it will stay with you forever
There’ll always be places, songs, gestures, words, pictures, poems…
that will always remind you of who or what used to be.

Let Go.

in time, the tears will flow less frequently till they stop
the pain will ache so badly till it numbs out
you’ll come to a realisation that there’s nothing you could have done about it
and you’re comforted by His words
His words that say He is not going to bring to you that which you can’t handle
and you draw strength from that wisdom
looking forward to each new day, knowing that no matter what you’ve lost
you can’t afford to lose your joy, your faith and most of all your hope
You may never know why it happened or what went wrong
you just come to that realisation that you must let go – JUST LET IT GO.

                             Now.

you must make a conscious effort – this you must do by choice
so whether you like it or not, wake up every day
believing that something wonderful is going to happen in each day
and when the storm comes and the wind don’t blow your way
adjust your sails and move in another direction into a new adventure

 So.

Live each day to the fullest.
Love like you’ve never loved before.
Sing and dance with abandon like you just don’t care.
Do something!
Anything!
Just decide to be happy… Ecstatically Happy!

                              Listen.

I don’t promise you the pain will go away
or that sometimes the tears will not flow without warning
and that you will always be spiritual when life challenges confront you
I don’t promise that you won’t blame yourself
wondering if there was something, anything you could have done
to have avoided that tragedy or that mistake
I still cannot promise you that sometimes you won’t question Him, asking why He allowed it to happen
and, you may never get the answer to that question!
I also can’t promise you that you won’t often wonder whether you should have fought for what you believed in-
Isn’t that what they said? The wise ones?
“Go after your dreams?”
“When the going gets rough, don’t give up?”
“If you don’t go after what you want you’ll never have it?”
“Don’t quit, every difficulty is an opportunity in disguise?”
Seriously, the wise ones who came up with these quotes forgot to put a disclaimer at the bottom-
“Terms and conditions apply”
because really some of these affirmations do not apply to every situation

Love.

But this one thing I can promise you
that His plans for you are good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope!
I can also promise you that He’ll never leave you or forsake you
And this I am so certain of, and can promise you, without blinking – that – HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH!
And that will never, ever change
NEVER EVER!

the Jacaranda secret

I turned around and there you were

shock.

i froze.

a million thoughts went through my head in that nano second,

a wave of emotions swept through my body at that instant,

time froze, everyone faded away,

it was just you and me in the room.

 

Nkem…

i came back to reality when I heard my name

only you called me that name

i saw the confused look on your face

i was with him, you were with her

and all I wanted to do was run into your arms.

 

You take a step forward then you saw the fear in my eyes, you stopped

i glanced away

this hurt…

so much.

 

Just then, another wave of emotion went through my body

like ice water being poured over me

i was cold, I felt cold, I went cold.

 

I looked back up, you were still staring at me

she was staring at you confused, he was staring at you angry, his hand gripping my arms tight

it hurts… where his hand gripped me, it hurt badly.

 

Jacaranda…

it was almost a whisper, but I heard you

even though you were so far away.

 

Our eyes met, I smiled, you smiled, you know, I know, we knew…

the jacaranda tree held our secret,

no one has to know, no one needs to know, no one is going to know.

 

That secret binds us together, no matter who, what, where or when.

 

Closure.

I’m going to have a lot of questions to answer to when I get home

but the jacaranda secret will go with me to my grave.

You are MORE THAN ENOUGH!

you-beyoutyful--jagabeauty

YOU! Yes You are BEAUTIFUL! You are MORE THAN ENOUGH!

You are STRONG and COURAGEOUS- you don’t even know half of what you can do.

You have failed, been knocked down, abused and insulted. You have cried your heart out, gone through the most unimaginable heartbreak, seen and felt pain but you didn’t lose your mind (even though you thought you would), you did not break, you are still standing tall, crown firmly on your head and still as beautiful as ever.

You my dear Sister are a SURVIVOR, I celebrate you today!